Chapter 7: March 9th, 1992
The local library was surprisingly empty at this hour. Usually at least a few people filed in after school hours to study somewhere without distractions, but it was essentially desolate. That was okay though, because it meant Mark would have access to his favorite spot for sure. One of the library’s computers, the one in the back facing the corner. The nearest window was to the right, but set far enough behind it so nobody from outside could possibly see the screen. The wall was directly to the back of the chair, leaving only the left side exposed.
It was perfect. To see what he was doing, someone would have to walk up from in front of him, get behind him, and start breathing down his neck. As long as he remembered to clear his browser history before he left, he was golden. He wished it were more affordable to have one at home, but this worked out pretty well for him all the same. So he pulled a few notebooks out and set them down before throwing his bag underneath the desk and sitting down.
His anxiety wouldn’t let up on the thought that people might find him suspicious, even though there wasn’t really a reason to think he was acting strange besides his refusal to use any computer besides the one that’s completely out of view from the rest of the room. So he always brought some materials from school to make it look like he was studying, and on occasion he’d borrow a book before leaving.
He did read the books. Sometimes. He was lucky to finish one before he had to return it, but sometimes one would hold his interest long enough to get through it.
But that wasn’t what he was really here for.
He opened up a webpage to an online messaging board and logged into his account. A mostly empty profile, one he made just to ask for advice on a particular subsection of the board. The site itself wasn’t completely devoted to it, but it did have a small community of people who talked about their sexual endeavors, shared tips, recommended toys, and anything else he could think of. And then some.
There were some things he wished he could unsee. Turns out weird people come out in droves when their face is hidden behind a screen.
Mark had to lie about his age to access the board, which he felt bad about. He knew there was an age requirement for a reason. But what else was he supposed to do? There wasn’t anywhere else he could turn to for help with pleasing his sex-crazed boyfriend. While he was at it, he also lied about his name, creating a fake persona. What if Cesar somehow found the site and matched up his name and the things he talked about?
When using the site, he was 22-year-old Dylan, using fake initials for his made-up name along with his fake year of birth as a username, hoping that would be convincing enough. If he got this computer’s IP banned from the site because they found out he’s underage, he would be so fucked. Not that it would be easy for them to tell either way, but it made him feel better. He decided he could get some actual studying done too while he waited for responses, which was a nice bonus, but for the most part he only had his stuff to avoid suspicion. Mark probably wasn’t the first person to use these computers for less respectable reasons.
When he logged in, he started going through his last posts to check for any responses he got while he was away. There was nothing new, but he found himself re-reading through them anyway, since the events from a few days ago were...amusing.
[03-04-1992|16:13CST] DM1970: Hey all, posting for the first time, need some help. Have a boyfriend I’ve been with for a while, started having sex. He’s been obsessed since our first time, doesn’t want to stop. There’s something I want to try with him but there’s a bit of trouble and I don’t know how to go about it. I’m pretty new to this. Anyone that might be able to help?
[03-04-1992|16:26CST] JrCy: obsessed, huh? your pussy really that good?
[03-04-1992|16:30CST] DM1970: Don’t have one of those. I probably should have mentioned that.
[03-04-1992|16:34CST] JrCy: oh
[03-04-1992|16:34CST] JrCy: um
[03-04-1992|16:34CST] JrCy: i’d comment but I don’t feel like getting banned lol
[03-04-1992|16:35CST] DM1970: The feeling’s mutual. I’ll wait for someone else, thanks.
[03-04-1992|16:39CST] Rosie11122: Ignore that guy, he posts dumb shit all the time. Hope someone here can help you.
[03-04-1992|16:43CST] JrCy: nah shut the fuck up rosie. hey gayboy you take it up the ass or do you stick it in his?
At that point Mark was itching to say some stupid shit back. Banter wasn’t against the rules, even if this kind of shit was.
[03-04-1992|16:45CST] DM1970: Dude you KNOW I’m up for both, I just fucked your mom AND your dad last night, you have a second dad now. See you at the Christmas party son
It was probably the dumbest comeback he’s ever thought of, but it worked. The main thread dissolved into a mess of the guy trying to flame him and the other user, finally snapping enough to say some things that the admins clearly thought was over the line and ended up banned. Seeing his name highlighted in red was so satisfying. Perhaps there was some good in the world after all.
He’d never think about saying that to someone’s face in real life, but this whole ‘hidden behind a screen’ thing had as many benefits as it did drawbacks. Stupid attacks like that don’t mean shit when they can’t use their fists to back it up. Now that he was back online, he saw he also had a private message from an admin.
[03-04-1992|20:47CST] ADMIN_Josh: that caused a trash fire in the main thread. I’m letting you off with a warning because it didn’t technically break any rules and it was fucking funny as shit but don’t do that again
Aw damn, that was after he left for the day. He figured he should probably reply so he doesn’t think Mark is ignoring him.
[03-08-1992|16:35CST] DM1970: Glad you found it funny, sorry about that though. Won’t do it again
He returned to his chat history in the main thread.
[03-04-1992|17:02CST] AirrRadd: What a fucking shitshow. DM1970, buddy, I got you. If you want, I can set up a private thread and add you to the whitelist.
[03-04-1992|17:03CST] DM1970: Cool, I’ll see you there then.
[03-04-1992|17:03CST] JrCy: wtf Airr you a homo too? since when
[03-04-1992|17:04CST] AirrRadd: since always and maybe if you stfu and choke on my balls you’d see the light too but you’d rather run your mouth like a lil bitch instead of putting it to good use
Oh. He didn’t see THAT part. And that really made the dude explode. This ‘AirrRadd’ guy probably got a message from the admin about that too, but by the looks of it he didn’t get banned. Other than ‘JrCy’ having a meltdown and his totally unexpected eviction from the site, there was nothing new waiting for Mark in this thread. The conversation simply moved on without him.
He clicked on the private thread with ‘AirrRadd’ to see if there was anything new on that front. He doubted it, seeing as he checked every day after school and nothing came up, but he had to talk to him now anyway.
[03-04-1992|17:09CST] DM1970: Hey
[03-04-1992|17:12CST] AirrRadd: Alright, details my dude. What’s the problem?
[03-04-1992|17:15CST] DM1970: There’s something I wanted to try with him, but he just
[03-04-1992|17:16CST] DM1970: god I don’t fucking know how to word this.
[03-04-1992|17:16CST] DM1970: He finishes so fast.
[03-04-1992|17:18CST] AirrRadd: Shit, is that all? I probably know a fix for that. What were you planning on doing?
[03-04-1992|17:19CST] DM1970: Fuck, this is so embarrassing
[03-04-1992|17:19CST] AirrRadd: It’s all good, no judgment here, I promise I’ve seen it all before
[03-04-1992|17:23CST] DM1970: It’s so stupid but I’ve had this fantasy of putting a collar and a leash on him and pounding him into the mattress, however much he can handle. I know he likes it rough but like I said he just cums so fast, what happens if he only lasts like two minutes?
[03-04-1992|17:25CST] AirrRadd: Not to be weird, obviously we both have boyfriends, but what are you packing?
[03-04-1992|17:25CST] DM1970: What?
[03-04-1992|17:26CST] AirrRadd: How big of a cock are you working with here? Have you measured yourself?
[03-04-1992|17:26CST] DM1970: Do I really have to tell you that?
[03-04-1992|17:27CST] AirrRadd: Not really. Just curious. But there are some things that I know could help depending on what you’ve got going on down there.
[03-04-1992|17:32CST] DM1970: Fine. Somewhere around seven and a quarter?
Mark was vaguely aware that he probably shouldn’t have given some random stranger on the internet that information to do whatever he wanted in his head with, but honestly, at this point it didn’t matter. He already had a fake persona and was lying about his age, so why stop there? In the end he realized that this guy didn’t actually have any meaningful advice related to his dick size, and more than likely was just horny and jacking off on his end, behind the screen where nobody else could see, but if Mark didn’t have to see it or ever deal with it then what the fuck ever.
[03-04-1992|17:34CST] AirrRadd: Ha, gotta get that quarter inch in there. But damn dude, that’s nice. Not surprised he’s hooked, you must be sending him to the moon every time, no wonder he cums fast.
[03-04-1992|17:34CST] AirrRadd: Ever looked into cock rings?
[03-04-1992|17:35CST] DM1970: I always thought he was exaggerating about me being big to be honest? Though it’s usually the thickness he comments on
[03-04-1992|17:35CST] DM1970: Now that you mention it, I haven’t. You think that would work?
[03-04-1992|17:37CST] AirrRadd: are you out of your fucking mind? He’s not exaggerating. Especially if you’ve got the girth to match the length, which is what REALLY matters
[03-04-1992|17:37CST] AirrRadd: Give yourself some credit
[03-04-1992|17:37CST] AirrRadd: Not that you’re the biggest out there but I’d say you’re in the golden zone. A little bit of extra bulk goes a long way
[03-04-1992|17:37CST] DM1970: Uh
[03-04-1992|17:38CST] AirrRadd: But not like what you see on male porn stars these days. Everyone drools over these guys with ten-inchers or longer but there actually comes a point where it’s not that good anymore
[03-04-1992|17:38CST] DM1970: ?
[03-04-1992|17:38CST] AirrRadd: it’s not even realistic, almost nobody even has a seven-incher, let alone bigger
[03-04-1992|17:39CST] AirrRadd: you two must not bother with condoms because if you did and saw the size you need you would feel differently
[03-04-1992|17:40CST] AirrRadd: Sorry for the rant
[03-04-1992|17:40CST] AirrRadd: But yeah. It’s not a guarantee but there’s a good chance it’ll do the trick. If you can track one down, have him wear it. Not only will he last longer, when he finally does cum it’ll blow his fucking mind. I’ve tried it myself, it’s incredible.
[03-04-1992|17:43CST] DM1970: Uh. Okay.
[03-04-1992|17:43CST] DM1970: Well I think I know a place. So thanks, I’ll try that.
[03-04-1992|17:44CST] AirrRadd: Awesome. By the way don’t wear it for too long. Like don’t let him fall asleep with it on, take it off when you’re done. If it starts to make his dick hurt then take it off right away
[03-04-1992|17:45CST] DM1970: Thanks. Can I get back to you on how it goes? You seem helpful
[03-04-1992|17:46CST] AirrRadd: Sure, I’ll keep this thread open. Have fun, fella. Maybe get me a sound clip of him moaning?
[03-04-1992|17:46CST] DM1970: I’m not doing that. But I appreciate the help.
Man, that guy was helpful. Didn’t change the fact that it was hard for Mark to not get mad a second time over that comment about wanting to hear his boyfriend moan. That’s his Cesar, and nobody gets to hear those pretty sounds except him.
But he should at least update the nice (kinda) guy on how it went, and thank him for the help.
[03-09-1992|16:45CST] DM1970: Hey I’m back. Not to say too much but it went great. Lasted almost an hour, he loved it.
[03-09-1992|16:50CST] AirrRadd: Glad to hear it. Need some ideas for next time?
[03-09-1992|16:53CST] DM1970: Yes and no? He was pretty open about wishing we had handcuffs. And I think he said something about wanting me to fuck him in front of a mirror. Is that a thing people do?
[03-09-1992|16:54CST] AirrRadd: Mirror sex! That’s a good one. Prop him up in your lap and fuck him like that, he’ll love it. Cuff his wrists and it sounds like a sub’s dream.
The thought of that was starting to make Mark’s face flush. Oh yes , he did want Cesar sitting on his dick with his hands cuffed behind him, facing into the mirror so Mark had a choice view of both his front and back. Watching Cesar make a lovely range of faces while he left little bites along his neck, holding him steady while he begs Mark to just let him have it already.
Cesar wanted Mark to ‘prove’ that he looked like a slut when he was getting fucked? Then Mark would just have to take him up on the offer. His mind was running wild, thinking of all the ways he could have Cesar crying for more, all while being forced to watch himself be taken apart until he was a sniveling wreck. And when he was done he would rub it in his face, tell him what a whore he is, that he lives for his dick, that nothing else exists to him. Being degraded would turn him on so much he’d whimper and mewl that he wants to go for round two, and then—
Fuck. He was starting to get hard. He was glad he wore pants that wouldn’t show it easily, but he needed to get out of there right fucking now.
[03-09-1992|17:10CST] AirrRadd: ? You there man?
[03-09-1992|17:14CST] DM1970: Fuck, yeah, sorry, got sidetracked. Hey I know I just got here but I gotta go, something came up. Thanks again
[03-09-1992|17:14CST] AirrRadd: No problem brother, show your little twink who’s boss for me.
Yeah, okay, whatever. Some stranger who was probably hundreds of miles away being horny for his boyfriend (he doesn’t even know what he looks like, the fuck?) was the least of his worries right now. Mark logged out of the board and erased his browser history, internally screaming from waiting for it to finish processing. Once it was done he crammed all of his books and papers into his bag, not giving a shit if anything gets crumpled and ruined, and made a beeline for a door without so much as looking at the lady at the desk on the way out.
